The biggest challenges that I face every day are prioritizing the most important parts of life and avoiding distractions. As I get older I realize that every step I take is a step closer to death. I battle with what is important for the kingdom, what is important for my family and those around me, and how I can be all that God wants me to be moment by moment. From eternity’s perspective is anything I do really going to matter in the long run. As a shepherd longs to see every sheep safely gathered, my heart desires that no one would miss the grace and purpose that God has prepared for them, even though at times I am unsure of myself. For some reason I keep forgetting that the Lord has never called us to carry tomorrow’s burdens before today’s obedience, but to faithfully walk with Him one step at a time. I wear my fears on my sleeve, the same place I put my heart, a place where all the world can see. I used to fear loss, loss of money, of stuff, of love, and of life, but not anymore because it has become commonplace throughout my existence. I have never had a lot of “money,” so it is hard to lose something you never really had as an investment. Over the past few years due to one reason or another I have lost stuff; it’s only stuff, and mostly discarded, unwanted debris of someone else’s cluttered life. As for love, besides God, I have only known the love of my immediate family and a few friends, so then again to lose something that I may have always wanted but never experienced is not really a big deal. When considering my life before Christ I was more afraid to live than to die, and now I am not really afraid of that either. Since coming to Jesus I have come to understand that my life is not my own and try my best to live out what is written in *Matthew 6:33 But first and most importantly seek (aim at, strive after) His kingdom and His righteousness [His way of doing and being right—the attitude and character of God], and all these things will be given to you also.* Have you ever really studied the scriptures as to what “these things” are? Something to eat, something to drink, what we will wear. Life really is more than food and clothing. I see that money, possessions, fame, education, status, people, or whatever is trusted in and is valued more than the Lord is idolatry and will always let you down and cause you to be defeated. When Jesus returns every celebrity will be nameless, every millionaire will be penniless, and every politician will be powerless. The only kingdom that will endure forever is the Kingdom of God, and every heart surrendered to Christ has a place in it. That truth gives me both conviction to keep pressing forward and compassion for those who are still searching for lasting hope.I am doing my best to stop worrying and being anxious, perpetually being uneasy and distracted about my life and how it is going today. I know that I am not the only one who finds it really difficult to do what is written in *Philippians 4:6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus*, but when I do, life is so much better. This verse is one reason that I have made it my practice to bring my praise before I bring any petition. I wait expectantly to see what God will do with me, in me, and through me as I surrender to His Lordship on a daily basis, many times moment by moment. I am one of those people who tends to write my blessings in sand and my challenges in stone. I am actively working on changing that. I want to live my life in a way that reflects what Charles Spurgeon said, “There is nothing here on earth that is worth a man’s pursuit except God.” The Sum of all my Fears are continually being replaced with calmness and peace by the power of the Holy Spirit and I pray this for all who read these words, in Jesus’ name, Amen. If these words find you in a season of struggle, uncertainty, or even quiet faithfulness, know that there is room for you at the feet of Jesus, where mercy is new every morning and His invitation is always open. My prayer is that together we would encourage one another, bear each other’s burdens, and keep our eyes fixed on Christ until He calls us home. May every reader discover that true hope is not found in what we possess or accomplish, but in the unfailing love and saving grace of our Lord Jesus Christ.

My BeLoved, may the grace and peace of the Lord Jesus, the love of God the Father, and the communion of the Holy Spirit, be with you all. Amen. In Christ Love, douglas. HE>i. pastord.blog

Special Note: I want to thank those who read what I write and are encouraged to support the ministry God has entrusted to me either one time or have decided to give on a monthly basis. I am encouraged to see certain verses playing out before my eyes like what is written in *Philippians 4:16 For even in Thessalonica you sent aid once and again for my necessities. 17 Not that I seek the gift, but I seek the fruit that abounds to your account.*

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