The enemy attacks in a variety of different ways. The more common ways he attacks me is with unrealistic expectations, self doubt, false hope, insecurities, inadequacies, and fear of being unlovable and forever alone. I do not live in this mindset, but it does seem that I have visited these landmines a little more often than I should due to recent events. When it appears like things are going to change for the better, it often ends up getting more challenging and difficult. My mind gets caught up in the flood of feelings and emotions of the world and not the truth and facts found in God’s word. Many hide their failures, questions, and doubts, but for me I expose them because that is where I find healing. I have been told that others relate to what I write due to the sincerity and honesty in what I share. At times I see how thankful others are to know that they are not alone, while some say that I need professional help. I pray fervently over what is written in *Proverbs 3:5 Trust in and rely confidently on the Lord with all your heart And do not rely on your own insight or understanding. 6 In all your ways know and acknowledge and recognize Him, And He will make your paths straight and smooth [removing obstacles that block your way]*. I continue to pray through everything that I go through with the expectation that God is always at work on my behalf. I like what Charles Spurgeon said, “ Often depression of spirit and great misery of soul are removed as soon as we quit our idols and bow ourselves to obedience before the living God. We must do this with all our hearts and all our souls, and then our captivity will end,” My biggest idol that holds me captive is how I think my life should be, and it’s not, and most likely never will be, and that is why my obedience to God is better than any sacrifice. I have realized that comparison is the thief of all joy and the leading cause of disappointment. There are times when I see what other people are doing and think, “I should be doing that too” but then I pause, I pray, and am reminded that I am on a different path and God does not have that for me. I am continuing to find peace where I am because my God is Sovereign and I want to be in His will whether I really want to or not. I read something that I mull over quite often,  “I asked for strength and God gave me difficulties to make me strong. I asked for wisdom and God gave me problems to solve. I asked for courage and God gave me dangers to overcome. I asked for love and God gave me troubled people to help. All of my prayers were answered.” My BeLoved, may the grace of the Lord Jesus, and the love of God the Father, and the communion of the Holy Spirit, be with you all. Amen. In Christ Love, douglas. HE>i. pastord.blog

Special Note: I want to thank those who read what I write and are encouraged to give either one time or have decided to give on a monthly basis in support of the different ministries God has entrusted to me. I am encouraged to see certains verses playing out before my eyes like what is written in *Philippians 4:16 For even in Thessalonica you sent aid once and again for my necessities. 17 Not that I seek the gift, but I seek the fruit that abounds to your account.* 

To any who are interested, please feel free to reach out to me with prayer requests, questions, encouragement, or for information on how to come alongside me with financial support for the ministry activities that God has entrusted to me at  pastord.blog@gmail.com or I do have a Zelle account associated with my phone number, 5202720387 last name Blaser. Thank you my Beloved for your ongoing prayers and support.