There are different types and levels of pain in this world and there can be many different causes such as physical, psychological, social, emotional, economical, but mostly spiritual. For most of them, it comes down to two basic results, pain that hurts and pain that alters. I know of certain individuals that are battling health concerns, financial hardships, relationship issues and/or divorce proceedings, as well as a variety of other challenges that cause intense pain and confusion. For many, pain causes them to desperately desire God’s presence in their lives. Personally, the enemy always seems to find a way to attack my family, but lately we have been attacked in ways that are challenging to deal with and still experience any joy in the conflict. We try hard to do what is right and yet so many parts of our lives are going wrong. My heart is heavy to the point of not being sure of what direction to go at times. We pray as a family to be able to accomplish what we need to do and figure out how to move forward with the latest onslaught of trials and tribulations. I realize that not every storm is intended for destruction, some come to clear a path, but either way my prayer is that we rise together as a family to endure. With the latest challenges, it has caused me to look more forward to heaven than in other recent events. I look to the promises of what is written in *Revelation 21:4 God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and death shall be no more, neither shall there be anguish (sorrow and mourning) nor grief nor pain any more, for the old conditions and the former order of things have passed away.* I pray that as I pour out my heart, that all will listen to what is written between the lines, that you understand that it is not about what I get from this world that has any substance, but who I lead to heaven in my time here that makes a difference with me. That as I share all that I do, that you can see that I have left the best of me on the page in hopes of encouraging whoever reads these words to strive to be a little more like Jesus every day, because that is my heart’s desire, to be a little more like Jesus every day. I have a hard time with some of the things some dead saints have said as they are not something I can dispute with them today, but probably will talk about it with them when I get to heaven. Charles Spurgeon said, “I bear my witness that the worst days I have ever had have turned out to be my best days. And when God has seemed most cruel to me he has then been most kind. If there is anything in this world for which I would bless him more than for anything else it is for pain and affliction. I am sure that in these things the richest tenderest love has been manifested to me.” My Friends, please pray for me because I feel that to the depths of my soul.

My BeLoved, may the grace and peace of the Lord Jesus, the love of God the Father, and the communion of the Holy Spirit, be with you all. Amen. In Christ Love, douglas. HE>i. pastord.blog

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