Many of the topics that I write about only some who read them might be able to relate too, there are a few of you that will feel them deep in your heart, and others have told me that I need to seek out a therapist or psychiatrist to help me work through the mental and emotional trauma that I have experienced. I have fought off the anxiety and depression that I battle with by writing out what goes on in my life and in my heart. I want to share that even though my life has not gone the way that I may have wanted, I am blessed that God uses me in the various ways that He does. The challenges that I face and how I share them are bigger than me. In all transparency, I do not want to share most of what I do, but I also can’t “not” share due to the direction of the Holy Spirit. So here we go. There have been many sins that I have committed throughout my Christian walk, and after repenting I have experienced the grace and forgiveness of God in a powerful way. A forgiveness that I feel that I never should have received. Whenever I am having a moment, and I am not doing well with all that is going on around me, and I chase an escape rather than the Lord Jesus,  I reflect on one simple truth, “But Christ died in my place.” I am thankful and convicted for verses like what is written in *Romans 5:8 But God clearly shows and proves His own love for us, by the fact that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.* As I have lost much sleep because of the trials and tribulations that my family and I face on a regular basis, I have not lost my faith and trust in the Lord Jesus at any time. The way I describe my faith is simple, Faith is believing that Jesus is what He has said He is, God. That He will do what He has promised to do in His word, be with me. And then, I wait expectantly for Him to be good to His word. I read something that touched my heart and I pray that it touches yours as well. “Why does this keep happening to me? It’s not fair. I never asked to be treated this way. I did nothing to deserve this. And yet, every moment of every day, completely unprovoked, God pours out His love on me, He blesses me in unexpected ways, His mercies are new every morning. No matter what I do I am powerless to stop Him. Even in the worst situations His goodness prevails. He is relentless. I am a victim of His grace.” And for that I am eternally indebted to the Lord Jesus and will do all I can to glorify Him for the rest of my life. My Friends, may God’s grace and peace be with you all in these difficult times and challenging seasons. Amen. In Christ Love, douglas. HE>i. pastord.blog

Special Note: I want to thank those who read what I write and are encouraged to support the ministry God has entrusted to me either one time or have decided to give on a monthly basis. I am encouraged to see certain verses playing out before my eyes like what is written in *Philippians 4:16 For even in Thessalonica you sent aid once and again for my necessities. 17 Not that I seek the gift, but I seek the fruit that abounds to your account.*

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