So far this year I don’t think there has been a day that has gone by where something didn’t go wrong, and some of it has been bothersome and painful. As a Christian I struggle due to trying to live a godly life in a fallen world, my internal battles with sin and emotions, external pressures of family and ministry, my long time disillusionment with unmet expectations and unattainable personal goals, and most impactful feeling distant from God more times than I care to admit. I realize that these struggles are common, and I am thankful that because of all that I go through I have developed a desire to foster a genuine faith, and often address my challenges by focusing on deepening my relationship with God, understanding my emotions are my own, and leaning on His promises brings peace, even when feeling tempted or tested. As Christians we all face the same struggles as others (sin, pain, suffering) but also contend with spiritual battles and the temptation to stumble in a world that opposes God’s ways. I often times fall on what is written in *Ephesians 6:10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. 11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. 12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. 13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.* Battling personal sin, lack of self-control, jealousy, or feelings of being overwhelmed, anxious, or depressed are common these days, many times because we lose focus. Many Christians weren’t taught healthy ways to deal with difficult emotions, leading to suppression, shame, or feeling isolated. We have developed a disconnect between Christian promises and daily experiences that can lead to disillusionment, especially if faith becomes ritualistic rather than relational. I know for myself, that over the years I have experienced periods of spiritual dryness and of feeling far from God, even while trying to follow Him closely. It can be discouraging, sometimes stemming from misplaced priorities (idolatry) or spiritual immaturity. Jesus showed by example that even profound sorrow and emotional struggle are part of the human, faithful experience. The Bible shows many figures questioning God, and God responded with compassion, not rebuke, encouraging authentic expression of feelings. One approach that I have taken involves finding God in the difficult people and situations, seeing them as opportunities to practice love and see true humanity as well as humility. My goal as well as probably my greatest struggle has been to focus on a strong relationship with God, nurtured through His Word. When I do this it helps prevent faith from becoming a joyless burden and more of a loving passion. When life feels hard, I talk to God and listen for that still small voice. Being honest with Him about my feelings. I am working on learning to seek healthy ways to understand and navigate difficult feelings rather than suppressing them, or in a way that is offensive. I have been more diligent in my daily engagement with the Bible while seeing how it has provided grounding and perspective. My practical way of receiving wisdom has been by seeking support from trusted brothers. Connecting with trusted Christians and people in my faith community who can offer guidance because they know me and all that I go through.

Closing thoughts. Cast Your Anxieties: “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you” (1 Peter 5:7). God wants you to give Him your worries, big or small, because He’s deeply interested in every detail. God Works for Good: “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose” (Romans 8:28). Find Peace: Giving your burdens to God brings “peace which transcends all understanding” (Philippians 4:7). Know that God Cares: You are never a bother to God; He cares about everything, offering love and support. Pray About Everything: Don’t keep worries to yourself; bring all your troubles to Jesus. Trust God’s Plan: Believe that even difficult seasons serve a greater purpose for your growth and His glory. Lean on His Care: Remember that God’s love and interest in you mean you don’t have to carry burdens alone. 

My BeLoved, may the grace and peace of the Lord Jesus, the love of God the Father, and the communion of the Holy Spirit, be with you all. Amen. In Christ Love, douglas. HE>i. pastord.blog

Special Note: I want to thank those who read what I write and are encouraged to support the ministry God has entrusted to me either one time or have decided to give on a monthly basis. I am encouraged to see certain verses playing out before my eyes like what is written in *Philippians 4:16 For even in Thessalonica you sent aid once and again for my necessities. 17 Not that I seek the gift, but I seek the fruit that abounds to your account.*

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