This past week or two I have definitely been off because my daily routine has been turned upside down. Buzyness has a way of changing a person and what their matters of greatest importance should be. Sometimes it may be only short term and then other times it may have extended effects. These past few weeks my priorities have been more focused on those that need my presence physically, my own family, more than those who have needed my guidance spiritually, mentally, or emotionally. I have tried to stay involved but there were a few days recently where it took all I had just to read my Bible, pray and try to get a few moments of time with God, so for those who have felt abandoned by me please do not take it personally. A little while back we had a few of those days where it felt as if the demons were attacking different aspects of our daily lives and in turn affecting our family’s peace. I do want to say thank you to all those who have reached out, encouraged me, offered to help my family, and helped me find some of the things that I seemed to have lost recently, my feeling of significance, my strength to endure, my peace, my joy, and probably most importantly that I have value. To those of you who have motivated me to carry on, I want you to know how blessed I am in the ways you minister to me, you inspire me, and for that I am eternally in your debt. More recently though, I experienced some people that have definitely shown me who I don’t want to be like. People who confess that their heart is to help others except when it becomes inconvenient or uncomfortable. I know that I can not please everyone and some get offended more than others, but my desire is to have peace. I understand that life is busy and not everyone is directed by the Lord the same way and times of a change in direction happen. For the few of you who have reached out I want to say thank you. To be clear, I have felt abandoned by certain individuals, but never by God. I guess that “Expectation really is the root of all heartache.” I come to clearly understand what is written in *Psalms 118:8 It is better to trust and take refuge in the Lord than to put confidence in man.* I am refreshed by the words of Charles Spurgeon written more than 150 years ago that still stand true today as the day when he said them, “Trust in God alone, and lean not on the needs of human help. Be not surprised when friends fail you; it is a failing world. Never reckon upon immutability in man: inconstancy you may reckon upon without fear of disappointment.” One thing to always keep in mind, that even leaders need support and encouragement, need to be lifted up when they are feeling down, and if they are not around, it is okay to reach out and check on them, at least it is for me. I cherish the thought that I am valued enough by some to be missed and more importantly prayed for and encouraged. 

My BeLoved, may the grace and peace of the Lord Jesus, the love of God the Father, and the communion of the Holy Spirit, be with you all. Amen. In Christ Love, douglas. HE>i. pastord.blog

Special Note: I want to thank those who read what I write and are encouraged to support the ministry God has entrusted to me either one time or have decided to give on a monthly basis. I am encouraged to see certain verses playing out before my eyes like what is written in *Philippians 4:16 For even in Thessalonica you sent aid once and again for my necessities. 17 Not that I seek the gift, but I seek the fruit that abounds to your account.*

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