“I Don’t Know” are words that answer a variety of questions for me as to my life today. “What can I pray for you about?” “If God called you to step out in faith, what stopped you from taking that first step?” “If God said ‘no’ why did you do it anyway?” “If you knew that you were directed by God to pray specifically with someone, why didn’t you?” Most people won’t admit they struggle with obedience to God and His word mostly because of the primary reasons of fear and doubt. Fear of looking foolish, fear of something bad happening, fear of something good happening, fear there will be a change in the future they want for their life. For some they doubt if God is speaking to them and others doubt if God is even real. I’ve come to the conclusion that fear is probably one of the least talked about struggles in the spiritual life. Fear has caused many to miss out on opportunities that came their way. We all run the risk of being stagnant and staying stuck in a rut when we fear changing the way God wants us to. I pray fervently over what is written in *Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”* I have a burning desire to please the Lord. I also have a fear that whatever I do isn’t going to be just quite good enough and even doubt my own worthiness before a perfect God. At times I have a growing anger and frustration with my personal Christian walk. A tendency to compare my life with the lives of others. I feel like I should be so much further along in my walk than where I am and it is a feeling that drags me backward instead of catapulting me forward. My prayer is simple, “Lord, I want to live more simply, as Jesus did, but I have fear of disappointing You so I am sorry when I do nothing at all. I feel that I should be out ministering more in some way, forgetting that You have called me to minister in my own home first and sad to say I fail even at that more times than I care to admit. I want to do more for the kingdom, but I’ve been so sporadic lately due to my lack of priority of the things of heaven. I haven’t been reading my Bible and praying like I know I should so I feel at a distance from You. I feel like I fail You everyday. Lord, help me to walk in faith and not fear and doubt. Help me “to know” what You have called me to do and give me the determination and obedience to answer that calling. Above all, help me to silence the distractions around me so I can hear Your voice clearly above all the noise of this world, in Jesus name, Amen. My BeLoved, may the grace and peace of the Lord Jesus, the love of God the Father, and the communion of the Holy Spirit, be with you all. Amen. In Christ Love, douglas. HE>i. pastord.blog

Special Note: I want to thank those who read what I write and are encouraged to support the ministry God has entrusted to me either one time or have decided to give on a monthly basis. I am encouraged to see certain verses playing out before my eyes like what is written in *Philippians 4:16 For even in Thessalonica you sent aid once and again for my necessities. 17 Not that I seek the gift, but I seek the fruit that abounds to your account.*

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