There have been many struggles that I have battled with my entire life and more recently the engagement seems to have gotten more intense. There are different sayings and quotes that I have read lately that have encouraged and helped come to an understanding that I am not the only one going through the trials and disappointments in life that have caused a breach of peace. I read “I can’t brag about my love for God because I fail him daily, but I can brag about His love for me because it never fails” and “I build others up because I know what it is like to be torn down.” As of late there have been some days where I struggle with who I even am to God due to my personal flaws and character defects, but when I look into the scriptures, I am reminded who I am to Him as I read what is written in *Galatians 4:7 Therefore you are no longer a slave but a son, and if a son, then an heir of God through Christ.* I believe those words, but more days than not, I just don’t grasp their momentousness. I love God, I love Jesus, I love the Holy Spirit, I love people, the only problem I have is that I don’t apperceive that I love any of them enough and that causes me to doubt myself to the point of not liking me. I fail all of them every day in one way or another. Many times it is because of pride, envy, selfishness, and distractions that I have allowed to overtake my thoughts and actions. For those who tell me to not be so hard on myself, please understand, I know my nature before God and the penalty of it. The truth of the matter is that I do not fear God enough. I also understand what Jesus did for me upon the cross as written about in *Hebrews 12:2 looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.* and accept that on a personal level. I want all who read this to know that “At my lowest: God is my Hope. At my darkest: God is my Light. At my weakest: God is Strength. At my saddest: God is my Comforter.” I read this prayer and wanted to share it. “Father in Heaven, Today I choose to release everything that has tried to hold me back. I release the past; I release bitterness; I release failures and missed opportunities. Instead, I embrace your grace and power to boldly move forward into the blessings you have for me. No matter what happens though, please give me a heart that is willing to obey You whatever the cost may be. In Jesus’ precious and powerful name I pray, Amen.” My BeLoved, may the grace of the Lord Jesus, and the love of God the Father, and the communion of the Holy Spirit, be with you all. Amen. In Christ Love, douglas. HE>i. pastord.blog

Special Note: I want to thank those who read what I write and are encouraged to give either one time or have decided to give on a monthly basis in support of the different ministries God has entrusted to me. I am encouraged to see certain verses playing out before my eyes like what is written in *Philippians 4:16 For even in Thessalonica you sent aid once and again for my necessities. 17 Not that I seek the gift, but I seek the fruit that abounds to your account.*

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