For those who don’t know me real well, it is sad to say that I regularly battle with a mixture of emotions like a row boat tossed by the waves of the ocean. I question myself as to if I am doing what God has called me to do or if I am toiling after works for the sake of the flesh. A little while back my oldest granddaughter noticed me looking a little perplexed and came to me out of concern and asked me, “Pa, are you okay?” My answer was, “Yes, just trying to figure out if I am doing what I am supposed to be doing for the kingdom. I have a lot going on and I am not sure if it’s too much.” Then this little girl began to question me. “Is what you’re doing bringing others closer to Jesus?” I replied, “Yes, I believe so.” She then asked “Do you believe that you are being led by the Holy Spirit to do all that you are doing?” I said, “Yes, but I have not been able to work much to be able to take care of our needs.” She asked, “Are the bills being paid, are we really lacking anything?” I said “Yes the bills are being paid, and No we are not lacking.” She responded, “Keep doing what you’re doing till God tells you to do something else. I know He speaks to you. He will continue to give us what we need if you’re being obedient to His will.” I said, “Okay then , I’ll continue.” I pray quite often about what is written in *Matthew 6:33 But first and most importantly seek (aim at, strive after) His kingdom and His righteousness [His way of doing and being right—the attitude and character of God], and all these things will be given to you also.* What are “these things”? Something to eat, something to drink, what we will wear. Life is more than food and clothing. I have experienced that money, possessions, fame, education, status, people, religion, or whatever is trusted in and is valued more than the Lord Jesus will always let you down. I am doing my best in the moment to stop worrying and being anxious, perpetually uneasy, distracted about my life and trying to stay focused on the kingdom and God’s purpose for my family, and more importantly myself. It is difficult to not worry about anything but to pray about everything, but when I do, life is so much better. I do not know what the future holds but I do know Who holds my future in His hands and I trust Him. As challenging as it is at times I will do my best to wait expectantly to see what God will do with me, in me, and through me as I surrender to His Lordship trusting that where He guides, He provides. I like what Charles Spurgeon said, “There is nothing here on earth that is worth a man’s pursuit except God.” And for me, it took a little girl to remind me of that truth. My BeLoved, may the grace of the Lord Jesus, and the love of God the Father, and the communion of the Holy Spirit, be with you all. Amen. In Christ Love, douglas. HE>i. pastord.blog

Special Note: I want to thank those who read what I write and are encouraged to give either one time or have decided to give on a monthly basis in support of the different ministries God has entrusted to me. I am encouraged to see certain verses playing out before my eyes like what is written in *Philippians 4:16 For even in Thessalonica you sent aid once and again for my necessities. 17 Not that I seek the gift, but I seek the fruit that abounds to your account.* 

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