Recently there have been many days where I feel like I am stuck in one place, every day is exactly the same. More times than not it seems like I get very little accomplished and sad to say I feel like the things I do get done don’t really matter for the kingdom? There are many burdens upon my heart that weigh on my soul that cause me to lose peace during the day and sleep at night. I feel that I have been stretched beyond normal limitations but by the grace of God enduring. I plan on taking a day to close down for spiritual maintenance, when I get around to it. I have grown tired and feel weak from the challenging circumstances and spiritual warfare that is going on around me. It seems like I am constantly at a crossroads in just about every situation that I could be in and think that they can swing one way or turn the other at any moment. There are moments when I wonder what is the point of it all and all I want to do is quit, quit everything. For many in our world they are continually chasing some meaningless worldly goal and at times I chase after a life of comparison. For the Christians, many of us would jump at the chance to do great things for God, but how many are actually willing and faithful to do the mundane, the grind of ministry to those deeply troubled in spirit? I pray fervently over what is written in *1 Corinthians 15:58 Therefore, my beloved brothers and sisters, be steadfast, immovable, always excelling in the work of the Lord [always doing your best and doing more than is needed], being continually aware that your labor [even to the point of exhaustion] in the Lord is not futile nor wasted [it is never without purpose].* If Paul had access to social media in his day, I think he would probably have simply summed up his life by posting: #graceforthegrind. When we endure the grind, when we are faithful to those lowly but necessary tasks that the Lord has given us, when life feels like it is a series of one thing after another without a lot of reason or meaning, we must ask ourselves, are we servants of the Most High God or only of our flesh. In the midst of the battle I have come to believe that the war will be won in the dirt, in the pit of despair. My beloved, who will join me in the trenches and fight to win lost souls for the kingdom? Time is short and the truth is that we are closer to His return than ever before. May all the followers of the Lord say with boldness, “Maranatha, come quickly Lord Jesus.” and then do the work that He has called us to do. My BeLoved, may the grace of the Lord Jesus, and the love of God the Father, and the communion of the Holy Spirit, be with you all. Amen. In Christ Love, douglas. HE>i. pastord.blog

Special Note: I want to thank those who read what I write and are encouraged to give either one time or have decided to give on a monthly basis in support of the different ministries God has entrusted to me. I am encouraged to see certain verses playing out before my eyes like what is written in *Philippians 4:16 For even in Thessalonica you sent aid once and again for my necessities. 17 Not that I seek the gift, but I seek the fruit that abounds to your account.* 

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