Throughout my life, it seems as though I have walked through more valleys than I have had mountaintop experiences. People on the outside, look at my life and say how blessed that I am, and I know that it is true, but the problem is, they do not see within, what goes on in my mind every day. I understand the purpose of the enemy, it is written in *John 10:10 The thief comes only in order to steal and kill and destroy…*. The fiercest battles that I face are not battles against the enemy and his demons, for which there are many, but it is battling with myself about many things that only God and I know about. My life has been filled with broken dreams, broken promises, and I have experienced a broken heart way too many times. There have been countless moments throughout my life when all I have known is failure and defeat, loneliness and despair. The reason that I am sharing this is because I believe that I am not the only one having these feelings and emotions in this season of life. I also want all those who read this to understand that I know the truth of God’s word and that many will go through various trials and tribulations as seen written about in *James 1:2 My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, 3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. 4 But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.* I know without a doubt that my God is with me whether I feel it or not. I look to His promises and they bring me comfort and hope, like what is written in *Hebrews 13:5…for He has said, “I will never [under any circumstances] desert you [nor give you up nor leave you without support, nor will I in any degree leave you helpless], nor will I forsake or let you down or relax My hold on you [assuredly not]!”* My desire is to experience a life that Jesus came to give me as seen written about in *John 10:10…I came that they may have and enjoy life, and have it in abundance [to the full, till it overflows].* I have prayed prayers from brokenness and weakness and God has spoken clearly to not only me but to others I know who trust in, rely on, and cling to Him. My focus has been transformed by what is written in *2 Corinthians 12:9 but He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you [My lovingkindness and My mercy are more than enough—always available—regardless of the situation]; for [My] power is being perfected [and is completed and shows itself most effectively] in [your] weakness. Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ [may completely enfold me and] may dwell in me.* So, Here I Am Again, at the foot of the cross, for there is no other place on earth where I can find peace and feel complete. My Brethren, may the grace of the Lord Jesus, and the love of God the Father, and the communion of the Holy Spirit, be with you all. Amen. In Christ Love, douglas. HE>i. pastord.blog

Special Note: I want to thank those who read what I write and are encouraged to give either one time or have decided to give on a monthly basis in support of the different ministries God has entrusted to me. I am encouraged to see certain verses playing out before my eyes like what is written in *Philippians 4:16 For even in Thessalonica you sent aid once and again for my necessities. 17 Not that I seek the gift, but I seek the fruit that abounds to your account.* 

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