There are many days that I feel that I am in a war with life and at times it seems cyclical. There are some that judge me for being honest because I share that I struggle with trusting God as often as I do. I have feelings of being inadequate, I suffer with anxiety, depression, and so much more. I do not share this with the world to get attention, but in hopes of encouraging others to realize that they are not alone in what they go through. I know there are scriptures that apply to my situation. Believe me when I say that I have said them like a mantra to get through desperate times, when I just don’t know how to handle the thing that’s coming next. I feel the enemy attacks that seem relentless, so I rely on what is written in verses like *Philippians 4:13 I can do all things [which He has called me to do] through Him who strengthens and empowers me [to fulfill His purpose—I am self-sufficient in Christ’s sufficiency; I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him who infuses me with inner strength and confident peace.]* I am saddened when I share my heart and hear, “here he goes again” “he needs more prayer” “why can’t he just get it together?” “You really should apply the scriptures to your life.” “Do what is written in *Ephesians 6:11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.*” For those that say these types of things, do you really think I don’t try? When a person is overwhelmed and feels like they are drowning in a sea of emptiness, the last thing they need to be told is to “buck up, you can do this.” For those that talk about me and not with me, show me that you care or be quiet and leave me alone. For those that know that you  should do something, do something, anything to show not only me but the broken and downtrodden of your world that they are not alone and abandoned. I implore you, offer to walk with them through their journey, and then you will see the world in a completely different way. Because of what I endure, I started a group for men and women entitled “Iron Sharpens Iron” and our motto is, “We Are Stronger Together.”It is a spiritual support group to help others to endure, be mentored, be encouraged and supported. I do want to thank all those who have walked with me in my journey over the years, prayed for my family and continue to support us in the various ways that you do. For those that just don’t understand the nuisances that my family endures, I will be praying for you to seek understanding and find it so that you may experience empathy and not just give sympathy. I never want to be the kind of Christian that portrays himself as perfect. I struggle, I have flaws, I’m a sinner, that is why I need Jesus as desperately as I do. In this life, I may never see why I have suffered like I have, but what I can say is that I have seen how God has been involved in my life every step of the way, and that is enough to help me to endure to the end for He is Sovereign. The words of Julius Caesar affect me by what I witness in the world around me, “It is easier to find men who will volunteer to die, than to find those who are willing to endure pain with patience.” My BeLoved, may the grace of the Lord Jesus, and the love of God the Father, and the communion of the Holy Spirit, be with you all. Amen. In Christ Love, douglas. HE>i. pastord.blog

Special Note: I want to thank those who read what I write and are encouraged to give either one time or have decided to give on a monthly basis in support of the different ministries God has entrusted to me. I am encouraged to see certain verses playing out before my eyes like what is written in *Philippians 4:16 For even in Thessalonica you sent aid once and again for my necessities. 17 Not that I seek the gift, but I seek the fruit that abounds to your account.* 

To any who are interested, please feel free to reach out to me with prayer requests, questions, encouragement, or for information on how to come alongside me with financial support for the ministry activities that God has entrusted to me at  pastord.blog@gmail.com or I do have a Zelle account associated with my phone number, 5202720387 last name Blaser. Thank you my Beloved for your ongoing prayers and support.