I have narrowed down my most intense struggles to one thing, that there is nothing in this world that troubles me as much as my own thoughts. More specifically, between what I think I should be and have, and what God has given me in perspective and purpose. Sometimes it is difficult to understand why God allows or doesn’t allow certain things to happen, especially at critical moments of our lives. Questions arise as to why He brings people into or out of our lives at specific times, or changes our direction of life in a moment. I have wrestled with these thoughts many times in my Christian walk. In recent weeks I have been caught off guard and had a loss of focus on things that needed to be accomplished right in front of me. My life has come to the point that I just can’t seem to get anything done that I feel is important for one reason or another. I wonder, “What did I do that was wrong this time? How do I stop the enemy attacks that at times are debilitating? How can I bring glory to God in my failure?” I often pray over what is written in *Proverbs 21:30 There is no [human] wisdom or understanding Or counsel [that can prevail] against the Lord.* If our hope is to be transformed into the image of Christ, we must accept the challenges as well as the blessings. I believe that God always has our best interest at heart and if we seek Him as the Bible says, walk by faith as we are guided by the Holy Spirit, we will receive the clarity that we desire in due time, either in this life or the one to come. Everyone wants a mountain top experience, not understanding that fruit is grown in the valley. Christian character is developed through the trials and tribulations that we endure. It is during the trials of our lives that God does His greatest work, I know He has in me. God doesn’t always let us in on what He’s doing as He’s doing it. Clarity is more about the awareness of God’s presence in the process and being open to the outcome so that He is glorified and not us. The end of the matter is simple, that if the Lord Jesus were to appear to me and was willing to answer every question that I had, the why’s and the why nots of my life, when He was finished, after all the answers were given, I believe that all I would be able to do is say “Thank You for all that I have been through by Your hand.” I am more confident today of this one thing more than any other. God is writing my story, I need to stop trying to steal His pen all the time to write my own. Please continue to pray for my family and I, we really need it. In Christ Love, douglas. HE>i. pastord.blog

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