To see Jesus face to face is my ultimate desire, and yet it causes me great anxiety at the same time because I know that I am a hypocrite, I know that I do not live my life entirely at God’s disposal. I want to be used by God and yet I am consumed more by the cares of the world than I am for the work of the kingdom. If you ask people if they want to go to heaven, the majority of them would say “yes, but not right now.” And then ask them who they would “not” like to see when they get there and the majority would probably say, God. With all the pain, division, misunderstandings, heartache, and sorrow, with all that is going on in the world, I want to go to heaven now more than ever. There are certain verses that I cling to in scripture, special promises that I have an urgency to witness. I wait expectantly to experience what is written in *Revelation 21:4 God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and death shall be no more, neither shall there be anguish (sorrow and mourning) nor grief nor pain any more, for the old conditions and the former order of things have passed away.* My prayer is simple, “Heavenly Father, loosen my grip on this world. Please help me to be more like Your servant Paul, more torn between remaining on earth to share with the lost people the good news of your grace, and going to heaven to be with Jesus.” For those that don’t understand what I am saying, in simple terms, you can have all this world, but give me Jesus. I am ready to go home. I pray fervently about what is written in *Philippians 3:20 But [we are different, because] our citizenship is in heaven. And from there we eagerly await [the coming of] the Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ*. I really don’t need to know all the little details about heaven. All I need to know is that it is where my beloved Jesus is, so that is where I long to be. I am homesick for a place that I have never been, a place where I believe my heart will be full, my soul will be understood, where I will be loved beyond measure, and that by faith I am convinced is the place I want to be forever. Charles Spurgeon said, “You will generally notice that when the believer gets near to God, tastes the unseen joys and eats the bread that was made in heaven, all the feasts of earth, all its amusements, and all its glories seem very flat, stale, and unprofitable!” Maranatha, Come quickly Lord Jesus. I will wait for You to come get me, and in the waiting I will be about my Father’s business as much as possible. God, please give me strength to endure, Amen .In Christ Love, douglas. HE>i. pastord.blog

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