Today’s devotional has been challenging for me to write for some reason. Not really clear on what to share so I have been led to share my truth of where my head is at today. I don’t have my life all figured out and at the rate I am going I probably won’t till I get to heaven. The truth is, there are times that I just don’t get it. Even when I am supposed to know it, I just don’t feel it at times. I also do not put on a mask pretending to be something that I am not. There are times when I pray to find out where I should be and what I should do and end up more lost and confused than I was before I started to pray. I guess I let the cares and concerns of the world cloud my mind and distract me from focusing on what the Lord Jesus has for me. There are many days that I just feel broken and alone. The only thing that makes me feel somewhat good is not pretending otherwise. I have come to many crossroads in my Christianity, trying to figure out whether or not how I am living my life is the way that God wants me to. Even, whether or not being where I have been for the last 25 years is still where I am supposed to stay today. Whenever I am experiencing these struggles, I always look to the scriptures for clarity. I remember reading through Jeremiah and there were certain verses that practically everyone knows, but for some reason at this time of my life they are not bringing me peace and contentment like they used to. It is written in *Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans and thoughts that I have for you,’ says the Lord, ‘plans for peace and well-being and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.* My prayer is simple, “Lord, help me to know how to be the Man of God that you have called me to be, one that trusts You in every circumstance, clings to You for help, and relies on You for everything. Remind me today that You are who You say You are and can do what you said in *Jeremiah 32:27 “Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is there anything too hard for Me?* Lord, I want to be a man devoted to You, consecrated to You, and well pleasing to You no matter what is going on in my life, and yet I struggle to accomplish even the smallest task lately. Lord, help me to understand all that You have for me to do to help further the kingdom as I call out to you and wait expectantly for You to answer me as written in *Jeremiah 33:3 Call to Me and I will answer you and show you great and mighty things, fenced in and hidden, which you do not know (do not distinguish and recognize, have knowledge of and understand).* Lord God, please, please show me everything You have for me and how to have joy today knowing that tomorrow is not promised, in Jesus’ precious and powerful name, Amen.” Maranatha, Come quickly Lord Jesus. In Christ Love, douglas. HE>i. pastord.blog

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