It is no secret that my family and I have been going through different seasons and with every season comes its own challenges. I want to thank all that have been praying for us without knowing any real specifics. It is very much appreciated. Life is very busy and I can understand as much as anyone that when people are not right in front of you, it is out of sight, out of mind. There are a few people that know the personal details of what I am grappling with, who have proven to be intentionally there for me in my time of need over the years. They had said that they would and have been actively involved in my life on a more personal level. Much of what we are dealing with and working through are the cares, concerns, and trauma of others that we know and care about, or that God has put before us. At times it is a heavy burden with intense moments of prayer through the spiritual warfare. There have been times when I have failed others in their time of need over the years, and for that I am ashamed. When it happens to me, I have become accustomed to not being shocked by it at all. I try to live the best I can by what is written in *Psalms 118:8 It is better to trust in the Lord Than to put confidence in man.* And as much as I can I do what is written in *Proverbs 3:5 Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind…* There is a story about a little boy that was having nightmares and cried out to his father. The boy’s father came running in to see what was going on then reminded the boy that when the nightmares come, to cry out to Jesus. The boy said he did, but he also wanted someone with flesh on. I feel that deeply, more than I care to admit. I try to be there for others as much as I can because I know what it feels like to have no one there for me in my time of need, in my darkest moments, and it hurts to feel forgotten by the ones that I thought I meant something too. This is not a rebuke to anyone, just sharing my heart and understanding of my life’s struggles at this season of life. Thank you to all who have answered the call to reach out in my time of need as led by the Lord. You are truly valued. Jesus loves you and I love you too! In Christ Love, douglas. HE>i. pastord.blog

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