Many of the topics that I write about only some who read them might be able to relate too, there are a few of you that will feel them deep in your heart, and others have told me that I need to seek out a therapist or psychiatrist to work through the mental and emotional trauma that I have experienced. I have fought off the anxiety and depression that I battle with by writing out what goes on in my life and in my heart. I want to share that even though my life has not gone the way that I may have wanted, I am blessed that God uses me in the various ways that He does. The challenges that I face and how I share them are bigger than me. There have been many sins that I have committed throughout my life, and after repenting I have experienced the grace and forgiveness of God in a powerful way. A forgiveness that I feel that I never should have received. Whenever I am having a moment, and I am not doing well with all that is going on around me, I reflect on one simple truth, “But Christ died in my place.” I am thankful for verses like what is written in *Romans 5:8 But God clearly shows and proves His own love for us, by the fact that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.* As I have lost much sleep because of the trials and tribulations that my family and I face on a regular basis, I have not lost my faith and trust in the Lord Jesus. The way I describe my faith is simple, Faith is believing that Jesus is what He has said He is, God. That He will do what He has promised to do in His word, be with me. And then, I wait expectantly for Him to be good to His word. I read something that touched my heart and I pray that it touches yours as well. “Why does this keep happening to me? It’s not fair. I never asked to be treated this way. I did nothing to deserve this. And yet, every moment of every day, completely unprovoked, God pours out His love on me, He blesses me in unexpected ways, His mercies are new every morning. No matter what I do I am powerless to stop Him. Even in the worst situations His goodness prevails. He is relentless. I am a victim of His grace.” And for that I am eternally indebted to the Lord Jesus. My Beloved, may God’s grace and peace be with you all in these difficult times. In Christ Love, douglas.

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